my life is not just my own

well hello:) 

it's already sunday evening and i simply have no idea where today has gone! i guess that's what happens when you sleep in until 10:00 and go to church from 1:00-4:00! sunday is a special day for me - it is the holy sabbath - and i try to live my life differently on this day. i want to feel spiritually cleansed and detoxed from all of my week's worries, stresses and things of unimportance and to do that i have to shift my focus. today my focus is on my savior, Jesus Christ.

 as i reflect on his being; who he was, is, how he lived and lives, i feel my heart begin swell with love and humble gratitude for this life that has forever changed mine. through his grace, i have been lifted above that which i was ever able climb alone. i have been fortified with the capacity to be present  in my own life and in reality about the natural struggles i have. with him i have been able to face some innate debilitating weaknesses with a determination and power to actually change. not like, the new years resolution kind of change that goes great for two days, but is quickly abandoned, but like, real change. lasting change. the change of my very nature and being. because of Jesus Christ and the way he chose to endure the insurmountable suffering of the Atonement, my life is eternally changed.

the choices we make not only affect us, they affect all those around us. our society has a tendency of "looking out for number one ---->me!" and i have definitely been guilty of this exact mentality a time or ten in my life. but this way of thinking and being is faulty when in fact, the effect of our choices does not stop at us and those we know and are close to, but it expands on and reaches countless others we have and may never, meet. as much as i want it to be, the choice of if, when, and how many children to have is not just about me. this choice affects me, my future spouse and children, my extended family, community, state, country and world! seriously the number of kids i choose to have could even be a contributing factor to the prosperity or detriment of the housing market near and far. i know i'm probably sounding super rash.. but! after watching a couple videos in class, my opinion has completely changed. my life and how i choose to live it is consequential not only to me, but all humanity, and because of this knowledge, i want to be more thoughtful with the seemingly insignificant choices i make. i want to talk with God about everything! for my life can either help others or hurt them. my life is not just my own.

xoxo
kelsiefay

p.s. i've included the thinks to both the videos that have changed my life and would love for you to watch them if you're interested!
http://www.byutv.org/watch/59b6b917-984a-478f-93b1-521a647779c4/new-economic-reality-demographic-winter-part-1
 http://www.byutv.org/watch/b3dfa9f3-6e20-4d64-af96-fbf3fd64670a/new-economic-reality-demographic-winter-part-2 

  

good morning

good morning. it is 11:18 in the almost afternoon and i am still donning my comfy black nighty and a bob on the head. nestled up in my warm bed. i suppose i'm not really dressed for the occasion to meet anyone but here i am, nonetheless, to introduce myself:

hi:) my name is kelsie fay and i don't like capital letters. i find that all words look cuter in lower case. call me crazy buttttt it's a real thing. creating a blog is the last thing i thought i would ever do. in so many ways i have an old soul. the kind that embraces everything tangible and real - things i can touch and feel. and a blog is not one of those things. it's virtual. it's far away. it's distant. i would much prefer to write my thoughts, feelings, impressions, worries, loves, stresses, anxieties, ideas and questions in my journal - complete with my cute handwriting and glued in trinkets from my day to day life - rather than typing on my laptop and feeling so confined by the perfect lines in which i'm supposed to fit. needless to say this is very outside my comfort zone and realm of natural being, but here i am! to fulfill an assignment for my marriage and family studies class and hopefully inspire realness, love, pondering thoughts and some good old fashioned soul searching along the way.

my goal is to be as real and raw, honest and open as i possibly can - even about the not so graceful things in life - for i know and believe wholeheartedly that this is the only way to inspire and cultivate deep c o n n e c t i o n between two souls. as human beings and children of God, we are hardwired for connection and love. i hope that together, you and i, can start to feel some of this as we live with authenticity and vulnerability

xoxo 
kelsiefay