my life is not just my own

well hello:) 

it's already sunday evening and i simply have no idea where today has gone! i guess that's what happens when you sleep in until 10:00 and go to church from 1:00-4:00! sunday is a special day for me - it is the holy sabbath - and i try to live my life differently on this day. i want to feel spiritually cleansed and detoxed from all of my week's worries, stresses and things of unimportance and to do that i have to shift my focus. today my focus is on my savior, Jesus Christ.

 as i reflect on his being; who he was, is, how he lived and lives, i feel my heart begin swell with love and humble gratitude for this life that has forever changed mine. through his grace, i have been lifted above that which i was ever able climb alone. i have been fortified with the capacity to be present  in my own life and in reality about the natural struggles i have. with him i have been able to face some innate debilitating weaknesses with a determination and power to actually change. not like, the new years resolution kind of change that goes great for two days, but is quickly abandoned, but like, real change. lasting change. the change of my very nature and being. because of Jesus Christ and the way he chose to endure the insurmountable suffering of the Atonement, my life is eternally changed.

the choices we make not only affect us, they affect all those around us. our society has a tendency of "looking out for number one ---->me!" and i have definitely been guilty of this exact mentality a time or ten in my life. but this way of thinking and being is faulty when in fact, the effect of our choices does not stop at us and those we know and are close to, but it expands on and reaches countless others we have and may never, meet. as much as i want it to be, the choice of if, when, and how many children to have is not just about me. this choice affects me, my future spouse and children, my extended family, community, state, country and world! seriously the number of kids i choose to have could even be a contributing factor to the prosperity or detriment of the housing market near and far. i know i'm probably sounding super rash.. but! after watching a couple videos in class, my opinion has completely changed. my life and how i choose to live it is consequential not only to me, but all humanity, and because of this knowledge, i want to be more thoughtful with the seemingly insignificant choices i make. i want to talk with God about everything! for my life can either help others or hurt them. my life is not just my own.

xoxo
kelsiefay

p.s. i've included the thinks to both the videos that have changed my life and would love for you to watch them if you're interested!
http://www.byutv.org/watch/59b6b917-984a-478f-93b1-521a647779c4/new-economic-reality-demographic-winter-part-1
 http://www.byutv.org/watch/b3dfa9f3-6e20-4d64-af96-fbf3fd64670a/new-economic-reality-demographic-winter-part-2